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Katy here. Today I have the privilege of sharing with you an award-winning poem and the story behind it. Can you relate to the poem below? May your heart be blessed and your dreams renewed.
The Girl with Hazel Eyes
by Beckie Lindsey
Where has she gone? That young girl from so long ago.
The memory eludes me like a cloud covering over the sun.
She had dark hair and large hazel eyes.
Those eyes that saw the world as an adventure to be had.
A world that is exciting yet dangerously uncertain,
But — with courage — could be contained.
I've been reaching back into the secret corners of my mind,
looking for a glimpse of her again.
I'm groping as one walking in the night with only shadows as a guide.
Desperately I search for her,
dismantling obstacles that keep her memory from me.
I remember how she teetered
between low self-esteem and arrogance
which usually landed with an outward projection of self-confidence,
masterfully hiding the inner turmoil.
Oh, but she was strong, determined, and quite resourceful
when it came to which face she allowed the world to see.
That face was poised and sure
but for the nearly unnoticeable glint of fear in her wide eyes
that seemed to whisper, "What if they really knew me?"
But only briefly could that whisper be heard
for she was a tower, tall and fortified that no one could penetrate.
She had goals and dreams that no one could take away —
that is, except her own self-doubt.
Is she still the same? I wonder.
Or did she capture the world and find
that it chipped away at her like rushing water over the rocks,
smoothing away the rough surface, revealing what is beneath?
Has she learned that her weakness is actually her strength?
Is she still a tower, tall and strong?
Has she learned to lower the guard and let love in?
"Does she still exist?" I ask myself as I ponder,
looking into the mirror through hazel eyes
for any resemblance of her.
"Yes — she does."
About the Poem (More from Beckie)
In seventh grade, I chose an elective class called Free Reading simply because I thought it would be an easy A. It was then I discovered a love for reading and writing. I was hooked. I began writing poetry and songs first then eventually short stories.
While attending college, I started working at my local newspaper. Not long after starting the paper, I got married and had my first child. I decided to be a stay-at-home-mom once my second son was born. I ended up homeschooling my three children through their high school years.
Staying home to raise my children was a precious time in life, but as they started considering college, I started to wonder about my dreams for writing. And that is what fostered the idea for the poem The Girl with Hazel Eyes.
I prayed and asked God if I should pursue writing once again. I entered the poem into a contest with Blue Mountain Arts and won third place. I took that as an answer to prayer! I now write freelance for my local paper, and have a blog. I have been published in several online and print magazines, have co-authored a Bible study, and have just finished a YA novel in hopes of publication. Glory be to God!
Writing the poem helped me to see the transformation God’s Spirit had been slowly making within me once I finally allowed His love in. When I was younger, my writing was for me alone, but secretly, I was not secure in my own abilities. As my relationship with Christ grew more personal, I realized the dream of becoming a writer was put there by Him.
I now see myself as a manager of the gifts He has given me. No matter how great or how small in my eyes, they matter to God. He expects me to use them for His glory. “Now it is required that those who have been given a trust must prove faithful” (1 Corinthians 4:2 NIV).
One of my favorite things to tell my children before they’d go out the door was, “Let your light shine.” This is what God wants us to do with the gifts He has graciously given to us.
Go use your God-given gifts and let your light shine!
© Copyright 2017 by Beckie Lindsey
Beckie is a wife and mother of three adult children and two adorable cats. She is thoroughly content with a piece of dark chocolate, a cup of coffee, and a great book. She loves to encourage others to not only know the truths of the Bible but to experience them personally and practically in everyday life. Beckie is a freelance journalist, writer, and blogger with two book projects in the wings.
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